So today was the day I found courage to ask to transfer to Kansas City. I'm sure it's an extremely long shot and they'll say no, but at least I'll know I asked and won't look back with regret on a potentially lost opportunity.

Meanwhile, I wish that I hadn't gotten the Kansas City thing in my head, because you know how I get when I get an idea in my head - has to be done NOW and there are NO other options other than that. Not completely true in this case as for once, I'm trying with every ounce of willpower I possess to be patient and try to really slow down and not mentally put all my eggs in the KC basket.

But I can't help think that although it would be the hardest, scariest thing I could possibly do in my life that I really want a clean slate and the opportunity to just start all over.